Last week's weight: 173.8
This week's weight: 174.8
Difference: +1
Total weight lost since January 2010: 97
I had another setback this week. And, instead of immediately correcting my bad habits, I allowed myself to go overboard Friday and Saturday. I knew it was wrong when I bought the pizza Friday night, but somehow I couldn't stop myself. I felt guilty, yet satisfied, while eating it. Well, I ate half Friday and intended to trash the rest on Saturday. Of course, I didn't, finishing off the other half in one sitting.
I woke up today thinking about the bad choices I've been making lately. With a surprising burst of energy, I then spent three hours working in the yard. I've got quite a few sore muscles now because lifting bags of mulch isn't easy. (As an aside, a nice couple parked next to me at Lowe's said I should get my husband/boyfriend to unload the car and spread the mulch. I know they were just being friendly, but I don't really need anymore reminders that I'm single!)
The physical activity was good for me and it gave me a lot of time to clear my head. Oh, and staying busy has stopped me from eating too much today. While thinking today, I've gone from one end of the spectrum to other when it comes to assessing my progress and my goals. I want to understand what causes me to snap and return to my bad habits from time to time, especially since I know how hard it will be to get back on track.
I also spent a lot of time thinking about getting older. My birthday is this coming Friday and I'm going to be 39 years old. That seems old to me because I feel better than I can ever remember feeling. And I'm in better shape than I've been since I was a kid. This is the first year I can remember being stressed about turning another year older.
I didn't really come up with any answers or conclusions, but I did decide that maybe it's time to set new goals ... one week at a time. Here are mine for this week:
1. Don't exceed my daily Weight Watchers points total unless I exercise enough to gain activity points.
2. Eat more vegetables. I'm hoping to trade veggies for fruit because I think I've been eating too much fruit. Technically, fruit is points free, but I think the sugar in fruit, although natural, still causes my body to want to eat more sugar.
3. Get at least 30 minutes of exercise every day.
4. Don't eat foods I didn't plan on eating. That means resisting temptation at the office when someone brings in cupcakes or candy or cookies or anything else.
5. Do one thing each day that I can look back on at the end of the day as something that made me happy.
Wish me luck!
Sunday, April 29, 2012
Friday, April 20, 2012
Weekly weigh-in: Not giving up
Last week's weight: 174
This week's weight: 173.8
Difference: -o.2
Total weight lost since January 2010: 98
First, I must apologize for not posting a weekly weigh-in last Friday. I didn't have time early in the day and then I had family in town for the weekend. Anyway, I had a slight loss last week and an even slighter one this week. But I lost!
For some reason, the past few weeks have been tough. I was seeing fairly consistent results, then I let myself slip a little here and there. Then, the splurges became more regular and I stopped tracking my Weight Watchers points. That's never a good sign.
I started tracking again today, which usually keeps me more accountable. For instance, on a whim, I stopped at the frozen yogurt shop on the way home. It's six points for one cup. I estimated that I had that much --- a small dollop of three different kinds. I hope it wasn't more than a cup. I did exert a bit of extra energy this afternoon while getting ready for a community service project tomorrow, so I'm hoping that will make up for any extra that fond its way into my cup. The point is that I logged it immediately and then started planning dinner and my snack before bed. I might go over by a couple of points, but that's ok as long as I don't use all of my weekly points.
And the really good news is that I've been keeping up with my exercise. I know it's important and I feel better when I do it. So while I might have been struggling some lately, I'm maintaining my overall weight loss, which does make me feel good.
This week's weight: 173.8
Difference: -o.2
Total weight lost since January 2010: 98
First, I must apologize for not posting a weekly weigh-in last Friday. I didn't have time early in the day and then I had family in town for the weekend. Anyway, I had a slight loss last week and an even slighter one this week. But I lost!
For some reason, the past few weeks have been tough. I was seeing fairly consistent results, then I let myself slip a little here and there. Then, the splurges became more regular and I stopped tracking my Weight Watchers points. That's never a good sign.
I started tracking again today, which usually keeps me more accountable. For instance, on a whim, I stopped at the frozen yogurt shop on the way home. It's six points for one cup. I estimated that I had that much --- a small dollop of three different kinds. I hope it wasn't more than a cup. I did exert a bit of extra energy this afternoon while getting ready for a community service project tomorrow, so I'm hoping that will make up for any extra that fond its way into my cup. The point is that I logged it immediately and then started planning dinner and my snack before bed. I might go over by a couple of points, but that's ok as long as I don't use all of my weekly points.
And the really good news is that I've been keeping up with my exercise. I know it's important and I feel better when I do it. So while I might have been struggling some lately, I'm maintaining my overall weight loss, which does make me feel good.
Tuesday, April 17, 2012
I feel fat
I actually hate the word fat, but I can't think of any other way to describe how I've been feeling lately. It's my own fault. I've let my guard down in recent weeks. What did I expect?
I got oh so close to reaching my intermediate goal -- 100 pounds lost -- and then I caved. I started letting myself slip here and there. One cookie won't hurt. Just a small container of frozen yogurt. I deserve a glass of wine. I convinced myself that I'd make up for the splurges later.
But I didn't. Instead, I kept eating/drinking more. After several days of overdoing it last week, I mentally decided to put my foot down. Sunday was going to be a fresh start. I did well that day. By Monday night, however, I couldn't stop myself from digging in the freezer for something ... anything ... with carbs. Then today I really lost it. Three mini cupcakes, about 20 Hershey's kisses and a half of a sticky bun later, I'm wallowing in self-pity.
I feel fat because I'm eating too much. It doesn't help that I look at myself and all I see is flab. The skin under my chin is all wrinkled and sagging. The skin under my arms flops around like I have wings. Even my legs seem all jiggly. And then there are the rolls of flab around my stomach.
One side of my brain realizes that I'm just feeling sorry for myself and I have no good reason to feel the way I do. The other side is louder. It's telling me to eat a cheeseburger if I want it or to go to the store right now and buy a box of macaroni and cheese. It's asking: Why am I doing this to myself? What IS the point?
I got oh so close to reaching my intermediate goal -- 100 pounds lost -- and then I caved. I started letting myself slip here and there. One cookie won't hurt. Just a small container of frozen yogurt. I deserve a glass of wine. I convinced myself that I'd make up for the splurges later.
But I didn't. Instead, I kept eating/drinking more. After several days of overdoing it last week, I mentally decided to put my foot down. Sunday was going to be a fresh start. I did well that day. By Monday night, however, I couldn't stop myself from digging in the freezer for something ... anything ... with carbs. Then today I really lost it. Three mini cupcakes, about 20 Hershey's kisses and a half of a sticky bun later, I'm wallowing in self-pity.
I feel fat because I'm eating too much. It doesn't help that I look at myself and all I see is flab. The skin under my chin is all wrinkled and sagging. The skin under my arms flops around like I have wings. Even my legs seem all jiggly. And then there are the rolls of flab around my stomach.
One side of my brain realizes that I'm just feeling sorry for myself and I have no good reason to feel the way I do. The other side is louder. It's telling me to eat a cheeseburger if I want it or to go to the store right now and buy a box of macaroni and cheese. It's asking: Why am I doing this to myself? What IS the point?
Friday, April 6, 2012
Weekly weigh-in: I am not the biggest loser
Last week's weight: 173.4
This week's weight: 174.4
Difference: +1
Total weight lost since January 2010: 97.4
Today was the final weigh-in for our office weight loss challenge. I don't have the final results for everyone else, but I'm certain I didn't win. When we started in January at 183 pounds, I had hoped to lose 10 pounds during the challenge. So I'm a little disappointed that I didn't reach my goal. That seems to be a theme lately.
I'm not at all surprised I gained this week. I had a lot of slips ... mostly when it comes to desserts. Side note: After weighing in this morning, I promptly grabbed a sugar cookie. And I think I'm having pizza for dinner tonight. I did exercise a lot, though, so I'm pretty happy about that.
As I've said before, I'm glad I'm still making progress. And I know I'm giving myself permission to eat more foods I didn't used to eat. So I have to expect that my progress won't be as swift as it once was. The important thing is that when I eat too much or the wrong foods, it's a conscious choice and I do it knowing the consequences. It's also important that when I give myself a little leeway, I'm able to go back to my good habits.
This week's weight: 174.4
Difference: +1
Total weight lost since January 2010: 97.4
Today was the final weigh-in for our office weight loss challenge. I don't have the final results for everyone else, but I'm certain I didn't win. When we started in January at 183 pounds, I had hoped to lose 10 pounds during the challenge. So I'm a little disappointed that I didn't reach my goal. That seems to be a theme lately.
I'm not at all surprised I gained this week. I had a lot of slips ... mostly when it comes to desserts. Side note: After weighing in this morning, I promptly grabbed a sugar cookie. And I think I'm having pizza for dinner tonight. I did exercise a lot, though, so I'm pretty happy about that.
As I've said before, I'm glad I'm still making progress. And I know I'm giving myself permission to eat more foods I didn't used to eat. So I have to expect that my progress won't be as swift as it once was. The important thing is that when I eat too much or the wrong foods, it's a conscious choice and I do it knowing the consequences. It's also important that when I give myself a little leeway, I'm able to go back to my good habits.
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